Never Alone
I came from a broken family, was brought up by my mum when I was young, never really had much of a father figure in my life. My mum was really working real hard to give us a good life. I never understood that, to me, childhood was just really void of a parent figure. I was often bullied in school, cried every night till I turned 12, I felt no one could understand what I feel, I never trusted anyone.
My Mum gave her life to Christ just after I was born, so time to time, I was been brought up in a "Christian" environment. I heard so much about God but never quite gave my life to him entirely, to me, that all sounded just like a fairy tale, and being in such a damaged environment wasn't helping me at all.
I stop going to church, told lies and excuses to get away with it, I would hang out so much and I always ended home just before midnight so that I could get away from home, with the notion that there is not where I belong. got into pretty bad company(not all of them are bad though), things slowly started to spiral downwards. Initially, everything seems to be fine, I had friends that would back me up whenever I needed them, its just the influence weren't the best of places. I started to smoke, and drinking alcohol, a lot(from 40 glasses of beer a night to at least 2 btls before I sleep). It would seemed that those habits would try to fill a bottomless void in my heart. though it wouldn't satisfy me, it was what I thought that could at that point of time, often I would come home smelling of smoke and alcohol.
I would say it came to a point where looking back from now, I thought God revealed things to my mum, she soon came to realize the situation I was in and when I was 17, she brought me into a Cell Group, or small group. Reluctantly but nevertheless, I went, little did I know that I would change my entire life. The first time I entered into a cell, God helped me to feel belong, to a family I never thought I had. I felt loved, understood and my eyes were opened to see what he planned for me. It was then that I gave my life back to Jesus, and committed to myself that everyone deserves a chance to know this God that I worship and how he loved us in His own creative way.
God began doing major work in my life, He began rebuilding all the broken relationships in my life, with my mum and all the people around me. I can honestly say, throughout the 5 years that I've trust in him, there has been really trying times, times I struggle so hard in seeing God in the picture, from financial to relationships to even emotional burdens, things I felt that a teenager should never have to go through. But God has never failed to be with me, holding my hand to walk with me, making me more like Him, in stripping away everything in me that speaks of the world. But at the end, He says, I will be cleansed.
I've seen how God can work in my life and I believe with all of my heart he can work in anyone's life, no matter how bleak the situation can be, no matter how much despair one can be. God is hope, the one we can live for.
Joshua 1:9 says:
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go
I believe that God commanded them again and again not because they were timid, but because He was giving them a reason to be courageous for. My reason is to see Jesus come back, to love the world and tell them that He lives! I'm going to be strong and courageous to see that happen.
I've been a born again Christian for 5 years, and I hope my story will give you hope and help you believe and trust in Him!
No one should ever be lonely.
In God's Love and Mine
Kenneth
My Mum gave her life to Christ just after I was born, so time to time, I was been brought up in a "Christian" environment. I heard so much about God but never quite gave my life to him entirely, to me, that all sounded just like a fairy tale, and being in such a damaged environment wasn't helping me at all.
I stop going to church, told lies and excuses to get away with it, I would hang out so much and I always ended home just before midnight so that I could get away from home, with the notion that there is not where I belong. got into pretty bad company(not all of them are bad though), things slowly started to spiral downwards. Initially, everything seems to be fine, I had friends that would back me up whenever I needed them, its just the influence weren't the best of places. I started to smoke, and drinking alcohol, a lot(from 40 glasses of beer a night to at least 2 btls before I sleep). It would seemed that those habits would try to fill a bottomless void in my heart. though it wouldn't satisfy me, it was what I thought that could at that point of time, often I would come home smelling of smoke and alcohol.
I would say it came to a point where looking back from now, I thought God revealed things to my mum, she soon came to realize the situation I was in and when I was 17, she brought me into a Cell Group, or small group. Reluctantly but nevertheless, I went, little did I know that I would change my entire life. The first time I entered into a cell, God helped me to feel belong, to a family I never thought I had. I felt loved, understood and my eyes were opened to see what he planned for me. It was then that I gave my life back to Jesus, and committed to myself that everyone deserves a chance to know this God that I worship and how he loved us in His own creative way.
God began doing major work in my life, He began rebuilding all the broken relationships in my life, with my mum and all the people around me. I can honestly say, throughout the 5 years that I've trust in him, there has been really trying times, times I struggle so hard in seeing God in the picture, from financial to relationships to even emotional burdens, things I felt that a teenager should never have to go through. But God has never failed to be with me, holding my hand to walk with me, making me more like Him, in stripping away everything in me that speaks of the world. But at the end, He says, I will be cleansed.
I've seen how God can work in my life and I believe with all of my heart he can work in anyone's life, no matter how bleak the situation can be, no matter how much despair one can be. God is hope, the one we can live for.
Joshua 1:9 says:
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go
I believe that God commanded them again and again not because they were timid, but because He was giving them a reason to be courageous for. My reason is to see Jesus come back, to love the world and tell them that He lives! I'm going to be strong and courageous to see that happen.
I've been a born again Christian for 5 years, and I hope my story will give you hope and help you believe and trust in Him!
No one should ever be lonely.
In God's Love and Mine
Kenneth
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About Me
Kenneth Heng
Singapore
I'm a 5-6 years christian that seeks an understanding of a wholesome God, the one that first drew me to Him and kept me there all these time even though the going may get tough.
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